Whether good, bad, or indifferent, if it wasn't for them, you couldn't be here.
Also, the traumas that are not grieved, or expressed, or healed, will be carried in the bones of the descendants, willing or not. It has been an amazing journey, and I highly recommend Daniel Foor's book 'Ancestral Medicine", if you want a step by step workbook, to do this work in a safe space. Your lineage goes back hundreds of thousands of years. Think 1,000 years, is about 20 generations.
At some point, we all meet.
In working class 3, in course 2, (grieving and forgiveness), I've been working with my mothers Polish lineage. In my Grandfathers lineage, which originated in Lublin. When he arrived in the US, his name shortened from Kozlakowski, to Kozlak, to Koslak.
I can see and feel the pain, in a safe space, guided by my well ones.
"Is there something for me to bear witness to?" I asked.
"It was like a Pogram", they said (except it was about the Polish). Russians, or cossacks, or paid soldiers, attacking at night, killing most of the woman and children. The men could do nothing about the slaughter.
"That is why they drank" the well ones prompted. I was also shown the red and white flag, with the eagle, and a bough. A very, very old version. I am shown, they were forced to leave their land, walking in the high snow, with just the things on their back.
I could feel the grief wave through me, I felt it in my bones.
There was also the rape, of a very young girl.
(I had seen known this before, as a psychic, something about the child of a rape from a cossack, who was not loved, who was hated, because of the rape. His spirit caused a lot of grief, subsequently, after his death. But that is another story.)
I was looking at this young girl, possibly 9 or 10, in her nightgown, huddled against the wooden wall, and staring back, with terror.
"That is where the being came in", they showed.
This is nasty, and dark, and the well ones push me back, not to see/feel. But I grieve it on some level. I am not healing it, or them. That is not my job. ( In this context, it is the job of the well ones, in the lineage).
As I am preparing to leave this journey, I see that the well ones are healing my great grandfather. Perhaps this will take a few more of these sessions.
Afterwards, I was in my garden, looking at my new grape sprouts on the woody stems. I felt softened by the grieving process, like I needed some time to care for my self, but otherwise, good.
I then felt a soft presence brush past my right hand, to get my attention. I saw a flash of my great grandfather, thanking me. Now, I have never seen him, but the polish nose I saw on that face was a telltale sign. I felt protected, I knew he was on his way toward ancestralization, but not quite yet. I'm sure there will be more work on that lineage.
Funny, now that I think about it, my mom had grapes in our yard, that came from her dad.
Some people doing this work can name relatives, going back many generations, and some only know their parents, or in the case of adoptees, may not even know their parents names. Some have taken DNA test to shed more light, and others just rely on their journey, and psychic abilities.
In this case I have only my mother, and a handful of photos of my grandparents, whom I have never met. I am so lucky to have strong psychic abilities, because this is how I am meeting them. When I journeyed to a relative that had crossed, (my aunt Helen, my mothers sister, who I have known half of my life), she took my hands, and placed them in my Grandmothers hands. And then, I looked up. What an unforgettable moment!
My mothers parents had hard lives, many children, and worked hard. They also were able to leave Poland to live the American dream, and own some land, build a house, a home, a garden, some livestock. Most of the stories I remember, have to do with gardening, stories of being poor, but making it work to be happy, and of family. The small town I grew up in, was mostly Polish immigrants, mostly Catholic, living similar lives.
I'll be doing more work, and explorations, on both sides of my lineages. Happy to share more, later.
Doing this work is not all painful. Here's an older post about my Italian lineage...
https://www.spiritinjoy.com/blog/saying-hello-to-your-ancestors-and-those-who-have-your-back
And here are two videos,
an animation on the history of Poland, (if you like it, here is the link to Pt 2
https://youtu.be/8CwFHH_y2So), and Pt 3 https://youtu.be/8P1y2v0BwnM
and of the population growth in Europe, throughout the aeons.
Gentle blessings,
Helena
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to feel, grieve, and release it.